Saturday, July 08, 2006
Vibe'n all wrong...
The past few weeks have been an absolute nightmare. Work has been hectic, drama is occurring left, right and centre in my family and my boy and I are barely talking.
I'm not going to talk about work - that would be boring - but I'll just say this: I can't wait to retire.
Dramas in family - will have to post about that some other time.
My boy and I? Well, let's just say there is a weird vibe going on. I feel like I've done something wrong ALL the time. He's barely speaking to me in more than one word sentences and when I try to hug or kiss him he brushes me off. I went a whole day without saying I Love You to him, just to see if he'd say it first...nope. I know that I deserve to be treated better, or at least be told what is going on. The way I see it, he's fixing to break up with me. It's so weird. At the moment our sex life is non-existent and he blames me for that. He thinks that I never want to have sex, even though 9 times out of ten I'M the one who initiates it. He's so aloof and uncaring that I feel like I need some time away to think about what is going on and whether there's a way to feel better. I'm at my parent's place this weekend, so that will give both of us breathing space. I guess we'll just have to wait an see.
I'm exhausted mentally and physically and I hate whinging about this crap, but I'm not the sort of girl who spills her guts to friends about how unhappy she is. Relationship problems should be private and personal, and I guess this is the only way I can get it all out there.
Anyway, there are a lot of bigger things happening in the World..
Peace in the Middle East, Good Night!
I'm not going to talk about work - that would be boring - but I'll just say this: I can't wait to retire.
Dramas in family - will have to post about that some other time.
My boy and I? Well, let's just say there is a weird vibe going on. I feel like I've done something wrong ALL the time. He's barely speaking to me in more than one word sentences and when I try to hug or kiss him he brushes me off. I went a whole day without saying I Love You to him, just to see if he'd say it first...nope. I know that I deserve to be treated better, or at least be told what is going on. The way I see it, he's fixing to break up with me. It's so weird. At the moment our sex life is non-existent and he blames me for that. He thinks that I never want to have sex, even though 9 times out of ten I'M the one who initiates it. He's so aloof and uncaring that I feel like I need some time away to think about what is going on and whether there's a way to feel better. I'm at my parent's place this weekend, so that will give both of us breathing space. I guess we'll just have to wait an see.
I'm exhausted mentally and physically and I hate whinging about this crap, but I'm not the sort of girl who spills her guts to friends about how unhappy she is. Relationship problems should be private and personal, and I guess this is the only way I can get it all out there.
Anyway, there are a lot of bigger things happening in the World..
Peace in the Middle East, Good Night!
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